Goodbye Twenties, Hello Thirties!

I was terrified of turning 30. I had been dreading my 30th birthday since January 1st. Entering a new decade of life has a way of making you evaluate the past, present, and future in excruciating detail. 2018 was a year of many highs and lows. I graduated medical school and started my residency in a great city with great co-residents. It's no secret that residency is one of the toughest parts of the medical journey. The sleep deprivation, stress, and anxiety was the perfect recipe for a mental breakdown. My situation was further compounded by an unexpected breakup and I found myself spiraling into a very deep low.

Even though I managed to pull myself back up with the support of my family and friends, the feelings of uncertainty and fear lingered. I became anxious about turning 30 with so many uncertainties about the future. I didn't even have the motivation to plan a big trip for my 30th birthday which was very unusual for me. As May approached, I knew I had to change my mindset. Entering into another decade of life is a privilege many do no get to experience and I knew I had to start changing my mindset.

Luckily, I woke up on the morning of May 14 with a huge smile on my face and a heart filled with joy. I remembered how blessed and lucky I've been to survive three decades through God's grace. The love and support I receive daily from my family, friends, and co-residents is innumerable and I couldn't ask for anything better. I have decided to completely surrender, let go and let God. Everything (career, relationships, the future) will fall into place when the time is right.